By jove! I think she's got it!!!

So with the help of Josh and Garden State (friggin GREAT MOVIE) I have officially figured it out. It's amazing... the clarity that comes with just talking to someone with a new perspective, and finding out what it is you really want... I'm just... in this numb sort of happy state right now.

Now for a few words of wisdom from Brian... I know I couldn't say it any better.

"Life without passion is nothing... and so is the artist's way... to become numb is to die a thousand times... and to take one new breath of air is as beautiful as any sky painted by God... hold dear to hope... never lose yourself in sin... for we are all but mortal with the weight of the world on our shoulders... just remember.. where you're from.. and live for one day, just to be alive."

*sigh*

Now all I have to do is... get ahold of him somehow (easier said than done)... and things should work out. Jeez... I hope with everything I have that it will... I want this to work.

So today should be friggin awesome!!!! I don't know if we're having band practice or what - hopefully not... on any other day I'd be like HECK YES!!! But there are... goings on that need to be tended to... very much, indeed.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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